A few years ago I attended the Samaritan paschal sacrifice. Numbering 745 members, the Samaritans are an ancient non-Jewish ethnic group, split between Nablus and Holon, who continue their version of
Biblical traditions. On Passover this includes joining together on the 14 of
Nissan dressed in white with lambs at their side. The orally recite the Biblical
Exodus narrative, and then summarily slaughter their lambs and roast them in
large pits. The lambs are to be eaten precisely at midnight, the very hour the
Israelites left Egypt oh so long ago.
I came expecting to be troubled by the violence of the
slaughter. What I experienced instead was a strong embrace of mortality. The
sight of blood is troubling not only because of its violent and ethical
dimensions, but because it reminds us of our own vulnerability. No wonder we
associate with it feelings of disgust and refuse. Witnessing this gory but
powerful ritual was transformative. I was raised a devout believer in
Maimonides’ theory of sacrifices being a “phase” the Jewish people had to grow
out of. While I still believe in some version of Maimonides’ post-sacrificial
narrative, I was deeply moved by the rawness of the sacrifice: I was in awe of
the inescapably real presence of blood.
I think of the Samaritans as we read in this week’s Parsha,
Bo, of the Israelites preparing to leave Egypt. They are commanded to not only
slaughter a lamb but to smear the blood on their lintels and doorposts:
The blood on the doorpost separated between life and death. The embrace of
vulnerability and mortality, through a public act of blood, differentiated the
Israelites from their persecutors, and granted them the key to redemption.
We no longer smear blood on
the doorpost, but a strange little custom continues to re-create a sense of
vulnerability on Passover: First born children traditionally fast on this day.
They should have been killed with the other first-borns that night. The fast is
a way of entering Passover not as victorious winners but through a humble
recognition of the vulnerability of life.
In his Hasidic commentary
of the Torah, the “Sfat Emet”, Reb Yehuda Leib Alter of Ger, also reads this
moment as an embrace of vulnerability. He notices that the blood on the
doorposts is applied by a “band of hyssop” – which the midrash considers a “most
lowly brush”. The primal mixture of blood and brush represents the embrace of mortality,
which in turn enables the promise that is to come:
Even though they went out from Egypt with great victory, God wanted Israel
to be in their own eyes like that band of hyssop, to know that they were just
at the open doorway, hoping to truly come inside. As if God says to them: “Make
an opening as wide as a needle’s eye, and I’ll open it up for you like the
entrance-way to a palace.” This took place at the Exodus from Egypt, just like
the opening of a doorway.
Then it is written: “The king has brought me into his chambers” (Song of Songs 1:4), referring to the giving of Torah.
Standing at the doorway
of the Exodus, a modern reader might be reminded of Kafka parable, Before the Law,
which starts like this:
Before the law sits a
gatekeeper. To this gatekeeper comes a man from the country who asks to gain
entry into the law. But the gatekeeper says that he cannot grant him entry at
the moment. The man thinks about it and then asks if he will be allowed to come
in sometime later on. “It is possible,” says the gatekeeper, “but not now.” The
gate to the law stands open, as always, and the gatekeeper walks to the side,
so the man bends over in order to see through the gate into the inside. When
the gatekeeper notices that, he laughs and says: “If it tempts you so much, try
going inside in spite of my prohibition. But take note. I am powerful. And I am
only the most
lowly gatekeeper. But from
room to room stand gatekeepers, each more powerful than the other. I cannot
endure even one glimpse of the third.” The man from the country has not
expected such difficulties: the law should always be accessible for everyone,
he thinks, but as he now looks more closely at the gatekeeper in his fur coat,
at his large pointed nose and his long, thin, black Tartar’s beard, he decides
that it would be better to wait until he gets permission to go inside.
I return often to that
day with the Samaritans, reminded of the symbolic power of blood as a symbol of
vulnerability, which opens a doorway to growth and purpose. In a world where
blood is quickly absorbed, meat arrives in nylon wrapped packages and our sick
and dead are sent away to the outskirts of town, we desperately try to do away
with our mortality. But the gateway to purpose and meaning (=Torah) is a
doorpost smeared in blood. As weird as that sounds, I wouldn’t have it any
other way.